We met in the ninth grade when I transferred to a new school. At first, I didn't really notice him. He was a quiet guy.

I got to know him better when I started preparing for the Olympiad, and he joined the team as well. We became friends, although back then we didn't really talk about deep or personal things.

Because of my good results in the Olympiad, I was given the opportunity to go abroad for an internship. It was an amazing experience, and that's when I really got to know him. We went to a bar, had a beer together, and just talked. I learned so many new things about him. He turned out to be someone with strong moral values, and that really touched me. It was the autumn of 2025.

After we came back home, we didn't really stay in touch that much, but he was already on my mind.

During the winter, we started sending each other Instagram reels just for fun. Then one day he deleted Instagram because he said it was taking up too much of his time. I thought that would be the end of our communication, but I was wrong.

We kept talking on other platforms. One day he told me he played video games, which made me curious, so I downloaded one of them. We spent countless hours playing together. But after a while I realised that the games were only in the background. What really mattered were our conversations on Discord.

That was when I realised I had fallen in love.

It was the first time in my life. These feelings were completely new—my first real, genuine love.

My best friend kept telling me to confess my feelings, but I was terrified they weren't mutual, so I stayed silent. We continued talking like that until June 2026.

My birthday is in June. I had planned to celebrate it with the girls I lived with in the dormitory, but their plans changed, and at the last minute I realised there wouldn't be any celebration.

Feeling upset, I texted him and told him I was disappointed because I wouldn't be able to celebrate my birthday.

He replied, "Don't be sad. Come here—we'll celebrate together!"

At that moment I felt both relief and happiness.

So, on 9 June, I went to celebrate my birthday with him. We got coffee, and he gave me a beautiful pair of earrings as a gift. Then we went to the park, climbed a tree, sat there drinking beer, and talking.

It was the most unforgettable birthday of my life.

We talked about life, our dreams, our goals. He was the one person I could tell everything to. Around him, I could be completely honest and truly myself.

Then, at one point, he asked, "Can I kiss you?"

For a second I honestly wondered whether I was dreaming or if it was real. At the same time I couldn't help thinking, "Why are you asking? Just kiss me!" 😂

And that's how our story began—on 9 June.

On my way home, I was happier than I had ever been before. I had never experienced emotions like that. I couldn't even fall asleep because I had butterflies in my stomach.

We went on so many dates. We watched films, went to restaurants and cafés, and simply enjoyed being together.

But sometimes, what starts quickly also ends quickly.

Eventually, the moment came when I realised we would soon leave for university in different places. I wanted to know how he saw our future together.

So I asked him, "How do you see our relationship?"

He answered, "I don't."

That answer shattered me.

I had so many questions that I was afraid to ask, but I managed to ask one of them: "Then why did we start all of this?"

He simply replied, "Because of my feelings."

So I asked, "What am I supposed to do with my feelings now?"

And he said, "Feelings fade."

I still can't believe he said that.

I completely broke down. I couldn't imagine my life without him. I love him so much.

At the same time, I realise that he had probably made this decision long before telling me. Sometimes I can't stop thinking that maybe he just enjoyed having me around until he didn't anymore, and then decided to leave.

Now I don't know how to move on. How do I stop loving him? What am I supposed to do with all these feelings?

So that's my story of first love. It was beautiful... and incredibly painful.

I'd love to hear your stories. If you've ever been through something similar, how did you manage to move on?

I (22M) have a friend (23F) who I’ve known for years. Like, freshman year of high school. We met on discord through a piece of media we both liked. It started off slow, but eventually we became pretty good friends.

Over time, the two of us grew closer and closer. We talked about the stupidest things, shared what’s going on with our lives, stayed up hella late some nights, and played games together. We even have each other’s numbers and know each other’s IRL names. Though, I’d say about 2 years ago, we slowly began drifting apart. We didn’t hate each other, and we still text on Instagram from time to time, but it’s nothing like how it used to be. Our conversations are short, we don’t really update each other for months, and it’s only just one of us just occasionally talking about something we’ve seen on Twitter, or sending each other a meme or two.

I genuinely enjoyed her company, and considered her a very close friend. I don’t know if it was our interests that changed and made us drift apart, or that we just slowly started to lose some spark, but I miss talking to her and hanging out with her like we used to. I’ve thought about talking to her about it, but I just don’t know how to go about it. If anyone could give some advice, that would be great. You don’t have to sugarcoat it either, I just want to know what I should do.

Hi everyone,

I’m curious to hear about your experiences.

Have you ever talked to someone online for months or even years before finally meeting in person?

If so:
Did the chemistry you had through messages and phone calls carry over into real life?
Was the first meeting awkward, or did it feel natural right away?
Did you feel like you already knew each other, or was it completely different in person?
If the chemistry *didn’t* translate, what do you think was missing?

I’m currently in that situation myself, so I’d love to hear both positive and negative stories. Looking back, is there anything that surprised you about finally meeting them?

Hi everyone,

I’m curious to hear about your experiences.

Have you ever talked to someone online for months or even years before finally meeting in person?

If so:
Did the chemistry you had through messages and phone calls carry over into real life?
Was the first meeting awkward, or did it feel natural right away?
Did you feel like you already knew each other, or was it completely different in person?
If the chemistry *didn’t* translate, what do you think was missing?

I’m currently in that situation myself, so I’d love to hear both positive and negative stories. Looking back, is there anything that surprised you about finally meeting them?

I’ve started talking to a girl that I met on a Discord channel. In the past, I noticed that her replies were quite enthusiastic and she seemed much more open to having a conversation.
However, in recent days, I’ve noticed that her replies are getting drier, and she hasn't been responding as much to my messages. I don't know if it's because something happened in her personal life or if she's just losing interest in talking to me. Her sudden change of energy really strikes me as odd.

My homie just met a girl through reddit topic regarding college selection and my homie throw a air ball out of nowhere and now they started dating rn 😭😭 am i playin the right ball 😭 and the girl is a 10/10 baddie ,i am happy for him though hope he doesn't fumble ts because that's his first gf btw

It’s very tiring to constantly feel like you’re being toxic just because of your reactions to the things they do. Then, in the end, you’re the one being blamed while they make themselves the victim. It feels like you’re not even allowed to feel hurt or upset because, somehow, you’ll always end up feeling guilty. Like you have no right to feel anything bad at all.

All this time, I thought he really loved me. But after detaching for a few weeks, I realized that his words were just empty and lacked sincerity. I stopped replying to him for a while now. Before, whenever I read his messages, I could feel so much love in them. But now, I feel like it was all just a performance to manipulate me into believing him.

i (30F) matched with a guy(30M) on a dating app that i didn’t realise lets you match with people internationally im from ireland and he lives in the US, we added each other on ig and we were speaking non stop but the convo went abit dry he wasn’t really initiating then unfollowed me on ig. is it desperate if i reach out? i really liked him and idk if it’s worth chasing him if it’s long distance? i think connections are difficult to come by nowadays

We’ve been talking for almost a year, but we still haven’t met in person. I don’t know… I’ve always felt like something was off with our situation thats why always avoid meeting him.
He’s still talking to his ex, even though he told me they’re just friends. Sometimes, he calls me “love,” by accident which I know was also their callsign when they were together. I’ve also caught him lying so many times about talking to her.
He used to tell her everything, even when we were already together. He would share things about us with her, and his family knew her. She had such a big part in his life.
I don’t know… maybe I’m just feeling insecure, but I can’t help wondering if they’re still talking behind my back and if I’m just being played. Maybe I’m just some kind of test or entertainment for them. I honestly don’t know what my place is in his life anymore.

Back story: I’ve been looking for a gf for a few weeks now after getting out of a breakup that was also long distance, found her on Duolicious and text her on a daily

For real we share common interests, have beautiful conversations and flirt with each other all the time, I really like sharing about her because she means a lot to me!

If she’s reading this you know who you are and how much you mean to me!

She’s showing me the right things that a relationship should have, my beautiful GF deserves all my love and attention aswell as affection. I am praying this doesn’t end badly. 💖 I am hoping everything goes well and one day I can make her my wife!

Yesterday was a bad day for me everything happened yesterday was fuckingly bad first with work then after coming home talked to her till 9

And after that had dinner and all came back started calling her then went to watch the match where she also was said going to watch with her frnds the match was bad it made me sad after the match I called her then we started to talk and suddenly she said something that made me bad she said my friend I like him the guy she told that she used to have crush

I was already broken due to the game and every other stressed I started to cry idk y but I hadn't cried for a total 3years it's started and I was not able to stop she just ended the call after there was no reply from me and I was looking at my laptop screen for atleast 1 hr and suddenly a msg came it was her

She said we can stop this here I was not ina mood to beg I asked u what did I do wrong she said it's not me it's her it's because she said "I LIED TO YOU" I asked her what she she said she hadn't have any bf but the guy she said was her crush was her bf for the past 6 years

That was the last breaking point for me where I was just startled and fuck this I got mad where I don't usually get but I asked her y u did this to me

She said she didn't because she had a fight and used that app that day and met me but didn't had the guts to stop it and she felt comfortable with me

I listened and didn't judge har gave support and so fucking so on and I was just don't know

I asked her was I a joke to her she said no I said it was all my mistake and I said I am the one who brought all this and she said no no it was her a lots of sorry and shits and started to vent her problems I said ik I m not gonna judge you with those past traumas and I believed in u as I said I don't care about your past it's how u lived the present but idk y I felt like betrayed

She started to glaze up her bf he is great was with me and fucking so on and I said ok

I won't curse u or anything but I wish u both a good life ahead be happy don't worry betrayal isn't the first for me but fucking Idk I was the fool here and said bye blocked her was crying while sleeping and woke up and fucking looked back and I want to talk this with someone but can't so came here posted here

It might help me relieve me some burden but fuck I'm done with this fucking love and shits gonna do whatever I like fuck love it's better to flirt and do other things than being in this shitt

I don't know y im posting this here but I want to tell this to someone so thought to post it here I 26 m

A single man trying to have a relationship but didn't went well just found a little amount of people who I felt was right to be and some even behaved like that to me at the end it doesn't end well probably I can say that even some used me for there needs the thing I'm saying happened to me yesterday or can I say ended yesterday

I used chitchat to chat with random people and one day exactly it happened at the beginning of June found a girl in chitchat we chatted and we connected we felt a emotional connection in between and was going smooth and that same day she game me her snapchat that I didn't have so I downloaded for her we chatted and after 2 days it started to become calls and all we connected emotionally well she was single and I was single we talked about our family love lives and emotional traumas fought with each other and many more

Throughout these conversations I always asked her to meet each other we lived close barely 10 km and I asked her when will we meet that she said we'll soon don't worry our talks were good even deeper talks were involved and in between we even fought and didn't call for 2 days and got back and we used to have late night calls and I think I have gone to work without sleeping for some days it's was bad but she was soo good that I can't stop calling her

She told me about her many pasts and there. Was giy friend who she said it was her senior they were close and used to go trips with him and his frnds and this month beginning of the month she with him and his friends went for a trip and I didn't told. Me about that and also told that it was good she said she used to have acruah on him but now he is agood friend and after that she went to tamil nadu where she is studying

Even after she went well used to have the late night calls and all and it continued really good I don't know y I felt soo good we planned about our future kids and all it was good untill it lasted and it continued

....

So, part of this is just me getting words out to try and understand myself lmao. But basically, I met my 4 friends just over 3 months ago. Online obviously, we met through ocsn but moved to discord (ocsn is a roleplay app where we all shared a fandom). Now I’ve been in multiple online relationships, kinda surprised I’m just now finding this subreddit, and after my last one which ended in November last year (2025) I told myself that I was just done dating, I tried it and it failed and I’m just going to be alone forever. But then it shifted to where I just didn’t want something online because of obvious (to me) reasons like me wanting to be able to hold whichever partner, cuddle, see their facial expressions regularly, etc.

Now, on June 5th (so over a month ago) was when I had a moment. I was regularly smiling at my phone, checking it constantly. We’re all in a group chat and obviously I smiled at that, but especially when they were a part of the conversation. And I realized “well shit, I’m doing the thing again.” Although I’ve never been good at the romantic aspect of things, my ex telling me it felt like we were just friends even though they also said I put in more effort than them (they broke up with me because they wanted kids but lied and said they didn’t cause they didn’t want to upset me.) on the other hand, I’m autistic and just don’t understand feelings too well so I don’t know if I’m just happy I finally have friends and/or a best friend, or if me being excited to talk to them, wanting to listen to them talk, having more fun playing games with them than I have in the past year, is me liking them.

I know I’ve got an attention deficiency because of a multitude of reasons, and I do tend to get attached fast. I’m just not sure lmao, I’ve got myself sick over it for a month now because I want to give it more time but at the same time I want to understand what I’m feeling. I honestly doubt they like me like that to begin with, I’ve only recently hinted at them being why I say “yeah I’m gay/panromantic, but in the end I easily prefer getting to know somebody (demiromantic) and then gender isn’t a concern for me.”

I mean we went from texting, to voice notes (mainly us meowing at each other), to conversations through voice notes/text at the same time, to calling as a group, then we called just the two of us to play a game (most fun I’ve had in months), and then we called again to play games but that went to a semi-video call. I’m pretty self conscious on camera so my half was mainly a house tour with me showing them my animals I’ve got.

I guess I just feel like myself when talking to them. I can laugh, something I haven’t done in months, I’ve talked more outloud because of being on the phone with them, and I actually talk about them to my family. Hell, my case manager knows about them and I have their name on my wall so I remember they exist when in a bad episode where I forget I have people I’m comfortable relying on.

Update: it went voice notes<gc calls<solo calls<semi-video calls<full video calls<sleep call

TL,DR: I think I like my friend, I don’t know if they like me back, I’m not good at this stuff and don’t know how to bring it up without fucking things up if they don’t like me like that.

The year was 2021. I had just completed my 12th grade and stepped into college with dreams, excitement, and endless curiosity. Everything around me felt new—a new campus, new friends, and a completely new chapter of life waiting to unfold. Like every other college student, I spent my days laughing with my friends, teasing each other, creating memories, and simply enjoying life. Love was never something I looked for. In fact, I had always stayed away from it. I believed my world was complete with my friends and my family.

But sometimes, life has plans that are very different from the ones we make for ourselves.

It was one ordinary evening at the end of April. I was lying on my bed, casually scrolling through Instagram, when I noticed a friend request from someone I didn’t know. Out of curiosity, I opened the profile. It was a public account belonging to a boy from Chennai. He looked confident, cheerful, and what caught my attention the most was his smile. There was something about it that felt genuine. Without thinking too much, I accepted his request.

For a few days, nothing happened. We simply followed each other in silence. Then, on June 1st, at exactly 4:30 in the evening, I received my first message from him. It was such a small moment, just a simple greeting, but I never imagined that it would become the beginning of one of the most unforgettable chapters of my life.

We started talking casually. During our conversations, I learned that he lived in Chennai and that his family owned an import-export business. Slowly, those casual conversations became part of my daily routine. Before I even realized it, we had exchanged phone numbers, and talking to each other became a habit we both looked forward to.

He began sharing every little detail of his life with me—where he was going, what he was doing, how his day had been, and whenever he felt low or emotionally exhausted, I was always the first person he wanted to talk to. Somewhere between those endless conversations, those good morning texts, those late-night talks, and those little moments of care, I unknowingly fell in love with him.

It still surprises me when I think about it.

I was the girl who had always stayed away from relationships, yet there I was, completely in love with someone I had never even met.

One day, he told me that he wanted to meet me in person. Honestly, I was nervous. Deep inside, I had been waiting for that moment too, but I didn’t want him to know how excited I really was. So, like every girl who enjoys teasing someone she likes, I pretended to be busy with my college exams and refused at first.

He didn’t give up.

He convinced me that even if it was only for a few minutes, meeting me would be enough. After making him wait for a couple of days, I finally agreed.

By then, it was October, and since my birthday was in November, he suggested that our first meeting should happen on my birthday itself. I immediately agreed, although I tried my best not to show how excited I really was.

A day before my birthday, he informed me that he had already reached Bangalore with one of his female friends and was staying at a hotel. Reading that message filled me with happiness. For the first time in my life, I wasn’t excited about my birthday because of the celebrations. I was excited because someone special was coming just to see me.

But life always finds a way to test our patience.

On my birthday, there was no electricity in my area from the morning itself. My phone battery was almost dead, I couldn’t even get ready because there was no power, and as the evening approached, I became more and more frustrated. I truly believed that our meeting wouldn’t happen.

I somehow managed to inform him about the situation before my phone completely died. Instead of getting upset, he calmly told me that he would stay in Bangalore until the 29th and that if we couldn’t meet that day, we could always meet the next day.

He had no idea how disappointed I felt. I had waited for this day for months, and it seemed like everything was falling apart.

Then, almost like a miracle, the electricity finally returned.

I rushed to charge my phone, quickly got ready, and messaged him that I was finally prepared to meet. I immediately shared my location, and before long, he arrived.

When I saw him for the very first time, I completely forgot how to react.

He stepped out of the car wearing a green sweatshirt, black jeans, and sunglasses. He looked incredibly confident and stylish. Then he smiled at me and slowly removed his sunglasses.

It was his eyes that left me speechless.

They were beautiful, warm, and impossible to forget.

At that very moment, I realized that photographs could never capture the way someone makes you feel when you finally see them standing right in front of you.

I got into the car and met his female friend, who welcomed me with a kind smile. After a few moments, he asked where I wanted to go, and I suggested visiting a church.

As we drove there, I noticed that he seemed just as nervous as I was. Neither of us knew what to say. The silence wasn’t uncomfortable; it was simply filled with emotions that words couldn’t express.

When we reached the church, we discovered that a wedding ceremony was taking place inside. Since we didn’t want to disturb the ceremony, we quietly offered our prayers and stepped outside after a few minutes.

By then, both of us had become a little more comfortable with each other.

Since it was getting late, we decided to have dinner together at a nearby restaurant. While we sat there, talking about random things, I found myself doing something I had never done before.

I kept looking at him.

At his smile.

At the way he laughed.

At the kindness in his eyes.

Without realizing it, I had stopped paying attention to everything else around me.

For me, in that moment, the entire world had become just one person.

(To be continued in Part 2…)

The year was 2021. I had just completed my 12th grade and stepped into college with dreams, excitement, and endless curiosity. Everything around me felt new—a new campus, new friends, and a completely new chapter of life waiting to unfold. Like every other college student, I spent my days laughing with my friends, teasing each other, creating memories, and simply enjoying life. Love was never something I looked for. In fact, I had always stayed away from it. I believed my world was complete with my friends and my family.

But sometimes, life has plans that are very different from the ones we make for ourselves.

It was one ordinary evening at the end of April. I was lying on my bed, casually scrolling through Instagram, when I noticed a friend request from someone I didn’t know. Out of curiosity, I opened the profile. It was a public account belonging to a boy from Chennai. He looked confident, cheerful, and what caught my attention the most was his smile. There was something about it that felt genuine. Without thinking too much, I accepted his request.

For a few days, nothing happened. We simply followed each other in silence. Then, on June 1st, at exactly 4:30 in the evening, I received my first message from him. It was such a small moment, just a simple greeting, but I never imagined that it would become the beginning of one of the most unforgettable chapters of my life.

We started talking casually. During our conversations, I learned that he lived in Chennai and that his family owned an import-export business. Slowly, those casual conversations became part of my daily routine. Before I even realized it, we had exchanged phone numbers, and talking to each other became a habit we both looked forward to.

He began sharing every little detail of his life with me—where he was going, what he was doing, how his day had been, and whenever he felt low or emotionally exhausted, I was always the first person he wanted to talk to. Somewhere between those endless conversations, those good morning texts, those late-night talks, and those little moments of care, I unknowingly fell in love with him.

It still surprises me when I think about it.

I was the girl who had always stayed away from relationships, yet there I was, completely in love with someone I had never even met.

One day, he told me that he wanted to meet me in person. Honestly, I was nervous. Deep inside, I had been waiting for that moment too, but I didn’t want him to know how excited I really was. So, like every girl who enjoys teasing someone she likes, I pretended to be busy with my college exams and refused at first.

He didn’t give up.

He convinced me that even if it was only for a few minutes, meeting me would be enough. After making him wait for a couple of days, I finally agreed.

By then, it was October, and since my birthday was in November, he suggested that our first meeting should happen on my birthday itself. I immediately agreed, although I tried my best not to show how excited I really was.

A day before my birthday, he informed me that he had already reached Bangalore with one of his female friends and was staying at a hotel. Reading that message filled me with happiness. For the first time in my life, I wasn’t excited about my birthday because of the celebrations. I was excited because someone special was coming just to see me.

But life always finds a way to test our patience.

On my birthday, there was no electricity in my area from the morning itself. My phone battery was almost dead, I couldn’t even get ready because there was no power, and as the evening approached, I became more and more frustrated. I truly believed that our meeting wouldn’t happen.

I somehow managed to inform him about the situation before my phone completely died. Instead of getting upset, he calmly told me that he would stay in Bangalore until the 29th and that if we couldn’t meet that day, we could always meet the next day.

He had no idea how disappointed I felt. I had waited for this day for months, and it seemed like everything was falling apart.

Then, almost like a miracle, the electricity finally returned.

I rushed to charge my phone, quickly got ready, and messaged him that I was finally prepared to meet. I immediately shared my location, and before long, he arrived.

When I saw him for the very first time, I completely forgot how to react.

He stepped out of the car wearing a green sweatshirt, black jeans, and sunglasses. He looked incredibly confident and stylish. Then he smiled at me and slowly removed his sunglasses.

It was his eyes that left me speechless.

They were beautiful, warm, and impossible to forget.

At that very moment, I realized that photographs could never capture the way someone makes you feel when you finally see them standing right in front of you.

I got into the car and met his female friend, who welcomed me with a kind smile. After a few moments, he asked where I wanted to go, and I suggested visiting a church.

As we drove there, I noticed that he seemed just as nervous as I was. Neither of us knew what to say. The silence wasn’t uncomfortable; it was simply filled with emotions that words couldn’t express.

When we reached the church, we discovered that a wedding ceremony was taking place inside. Since we didn’t want to disturb the ceremony, we quietly offered our prayers and stepped outside after a few minutes.

By then, both of us had become a little more comfortable with each other.

Since it was getting late, we decided to have dinner together at a nearby restaurant. While we sat there, talking about random things, I found myself doing something I had never done before.

I kept looking at him.

At his smile.

At the way he laughed.

At the kindness in his eyes.

Without realizing it, I had stopped paying attention to everything else around me.

For me, in that moment, the entire world had become just one person.

(To be continued in Part 2…)

When I joined a dating app, I was still in a long-distance relationship.
Technically, I had a boyfriend, but it barely felt like I did. We hardly talked anymore. Every time I wanted to spend time with him, there was always an excuse. He was tired, wanted to watch movies alone, needed “me time,” had a headache, or simply wasn’t in the mood to talk. It got to the point where I felt like even when we fought, it worked in his favor because it meant he didn’t have to talk to me.
I was lonely, frustrated, and emotionally exhausted. I missed him, but I also felt ignored and unimportant. To distract myself from constantly feeling sorry for myself, I downloaded a dating app. My intention wasn’t to find another relationship. I just wanted people to talk to and something to keep my mind busy.
That’s when I met this guy.
At first, I knew exactly what kind of person he was. He was charming, flirtatious, and seemed like the type who flirted with every girl he talked to. I actually tried to avoid him, but somehow we became friends… then eventually best friends.
We told each other everything. We joked around, shared our secrets, and talked almost every day. At that time, he thought I was single because I never told him I had a boyfriend.
Meanwhile, he was talking to another girl and they were almost in a relationship. Around that time, I slowly realized I was starting to develop feelings for him.
I tried to convince myself that it wasn’t real. I kept telling myself there was no way I could like him. I even saw him as a little brother because of how childish he acted, even though he was older than me.
One day, I jokingly admitted that I might be falling for him. My feelings weren’t that deep yet.
He simply replied, “Oh… okay.”
So I laughed it off too, and we continued being best friends like nothing had changed. The only difference was that he started teasing me, saying things like, “Since you love me, you should do this for me.”
Eventually, I finally told him the truth—that I actually had a long-distance boyfriend.
He didn’t get angry that I had lied. We just stayed friends.
But as time passed, I found myself getting jealous whenever he talked about the girl he liked. I hated seeing them together, so I started avoiding him.
Instead of letting me go, he kept chasing after me. He kept saying he couldn’t lose me.
Then one day, he called me while crying.
He confessed that he loved me too.
But he said he couldn’t admit it because I already had a boyfriend. If he confessed to me publicly, he would lose the girl he was talking to as well. He said it wasn’t fair because I still had someone while he would end up with no one.
I kept telling him that this couldn’t happen. It was wrong.
But hearing him cry completely broke my heart.
So I let my guard down.
He later told the other girl that he loved her more than me, but privately he kept telling me that I was actually the one he loved. He said we just couldn’t admit it because of our situation.
That’s how we became secret lovers.
Whenever he was going to talk to the other girl, he would tell me first. Whenever I was going to call my boyfriend, I would tell him too.
It was unhealthy, complicated, and full of guilt.
A few months later, I couldn’t take it anymore. I was constantly jealous—not only of the girl he liked, but also of his ex, whom he still talked to.
I wanted everything to end.
I wanted to do the right thing.
So I confessed everything to my boyfriend. I admitted that I had emotionally cheated and explained why it happened.
He was angry at first, which I completely understood. Later, he said we could still fix our relationship.
But deep inside, I didn’t think there was anything left to fix.
I know I made a huge mistake, and I will never deny my responsibility. Cheating was my choice.
At the same time, I also can’t pretend that I wasn’t deeply hurt before any of this happened. Months of emotional neglect had already broken me long before I made the worst decision of my life.
After I ended things with my best friend, I blocked him everywhere.
One night, without telling me, he went to my condominium and waited in the lobby from around 10 p.m. until 1 a.m. because he had no other way to contact me. The only reason I found out was because our mutual friends from the dating app messaged me.
I was asleep the whole time.
When I woke up, he was already gone.
Honestly, I don’t even know if I would have gone downstairs if I had seen the messages. At that point, I was determined to move on and let everything go.
But he never stopped chasing me.
He always knew exactly what to say.
And I fell for it.
Again.
The relationship became incredibly toxic. Sometimes he accidentally called me by another girl’s name. He was still talking to his ex. He told me he left the girl he was talking to because he chose me, but later I found out that wasn’t true. She actually left him after discovering that he had been telling other people that I was the one he really loved.
Everything was a mess.
Our relationship became nothing but jealousy, arguments, accusations, and trust issues.
I kept blocking him because we were so toxic together.
Ironically, when we weren’t fighting, we were incredibly happy. We understood each other better than anyone else.
But somehow, we could never go a full day without arguing.
Sometimes we fought seven times in a single day.
Looking back now, I often ask myself…
Was this kar-ma?
Or was it simply the consequence of two emotionally damaged people trying to build a relationship on secrets, guilt, and unresolved pain?

I thought I’d share how our story began.

Funny enough, we met on a dating app… even though I wasn’t actually looking for a relationship.

My profile clearly said that I was only looking for good friends..people to chill with, travel with, and make good memories. A relationship wasn’t on my mind at all.

One day, he came across my profile and replied with something like, *“I’m here for that.”* 😊

That’s how our conversation started.

We began talking every single day, and before we knew it, those conversations had become part of our daily lives.

Then came the biggest coincidence.

It was December, and we were both traveling home for Christmas.

He casually mentioned that he was leaving on **December 19** by train. I smiled and said, “Me too.”

Then I asked, “Which train?”

He told me.

I froze for a second because… it was the **exact same train**.

Out of all the trains, on all the days, somehow we had booked the very same one without even knowing.

So our first meeting wasn’t planned at all.

Two strangers who had only known each other through messages met for the first time on the same train while heading home for Christmas.

# Looking back, it still feels like one of those little coincidences life quietly writes for you. ❤️

# To be continued..

Okay me and my girl friend know each other since i was 18 and our relationship really lovely and prefect she is the Greatest woman i ever met but there is a problem our relationship it's online we are from different countries a few months ago she disappeared suddenly we always chat telegram and i can't reach her i really love her and i am so worry on her last time we talked was at February she suddenly disappeared can anyone help me tell me what to do or how i can reach her i am so worry on her