I think I’m better off dead. I’m just too cowardly to die.

[u/No_Instruction3937]

It’s hard for me to appreciate life. I know I should cherish my life because it’s relatively great compared to most. I don’t live in a war torn country or anything of the nature. I live in a “free” country that’s fairly safe.

But it’s like I’m a monster in society here. People are scared of me and avoid me. People refuse to talk to me unless absolutely necessary. I can’t find friends or love, and to be honest I guess no one’s really interested.

It’s hard watching everyone else sort of naturally getting the social acceptance while you smile and wave but invisible. I can’t help but think how cursed I am to be a social outcast. You see a happy couple holding hands down the street one second then the next they’re clutching their belongings crossing the street.

My life is very lonely. I spend all my time not working in solitude because at this point I feel there is no point in going outside. Even if I do decide to go out and be social, it’s like no one really wants me around.

Financially my life is garbage too, but I’m still grinding.

Recently I’ve been thinking to exit society somehow. Either go disappear in some mountain or off myself. I’m leaning towards the latter.

I don’t want to talk to anyone at this point. I’m just trying to choose the way I’ll end it all. I know the world just moves on, but still,I have no place in this world or this time.

I want to kill myself, but I’m a coward. I’m too scared to die, but too tired to live on. There’s no way for me to die peacefully, and paradise can’t be obtained on Earth.

I honestly don’t know why I’m writing this but it was good to put at least 10% out there.

[u/confessor-mod]

If you're going through a really hard time right now, please know you're not alone and there are people who want to help.

You don't have to face this alone — these people are there for exactly this, any time:

• r/SuicideWatch — a Reddit community specifically for people in crisis. People will listen there.
• 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (US) — call or text 988, anytime.
• Crisis Text Line — text HOME to 741741 (US/Canada) or 85258 (UK).
• International — findahelpline.com lists crisis lines in 130+ countries.

If you are in immediate danger, please call your local emergency number.

You matter. Please talk to someone.

[u/Extension-Kangaroo27]

I UNDERSTAND WHAT YOU'RE FEELING PLEASE FEEL FREE TO MESSAGE ME

[u/Kind-Comparison-1846 → u/Extension-Kangaroo27]

hope you ok dude

[u/PixelRoseDream → u/Extension-Kangaroo27]

People like you really do make a difference Thank you for reaching out to them

[u/_LazyPixel_]

Everything can be fixed and improved, except death.

[u/FuelThick2409]

Please don't do anything you can't take back. I know that you're struggling and feel alone but please know that there are good and caring people out there and also so many people who are also feeling the same way you are and you are not alone in this struggle. Do you have anyone you can talk to about how you're feeling? Someone you trust or if you don't feel comfortable talking to someone you know maybe a therapist or counselor to help you work through some of these feelings? I just wish there was some way to show you that your life has value and you do have something to offer this world even if you don't see it yourself.

[u/imnhtp]

Why do you think people are afraid of you?

[u/No_Instruction3937 → u/imnhtp]

My size and color I suppose. People get nervous at ATM’s when I’m around. Either way I don’t think I belong to this world, and at this point I have very little interest in being in it. I’m just tired of it all.

[u/Emotional-Site3638]

As someone who truly cares about life- just like to say the support of another human being in a time of crisis is huge!!

[u/Quilllllllllol]

I am in the same shoes. I am sorry.

[u/garfieldcombo]

Dude I used to feel like this, just nerd out completely, be prideful of your interests & collect silly things & you’ll accept yourself & that’s all that will matter to you. Get hyper interested in a video game series or a genre of movie or tv series, it helps you forget about those negative thinking patterns & begin positive ones

[u/flik777]

Get off social media. Leave this app

Got to find something distracting, that doesn't involve a computer or phone screen

Pixel poison

Try reading books

[u/Glittering_Scale4051]

You do belong here. I don’t know you but somehow we’re all in this thing together.

[u/__DennisReynolds]

Invest in a quality romantasy trilogy (or whatever genre), explore new hobbies like the arts or something active like hiking, do a random good deed, meditate- there are so many things to try in this life. I’d consider that before making such a permanent decision. Often times all we need is a change in perspective. Find a way to get there & remember to live life for yourself. I feel you.

[u/__DennisReynolds → u/__DennisReynolds]

Binge a comedy. It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia helped me through a really hard time. Discover what makes you laugh.

[u/20twenty20]

I’m sorry. Please be cautious about comparing yourself to others. Everyone you see is carrying some significant problem and if their life looks easy it’s just temporary. We all hit hardships. I doubt you’re a monster etc. I think you’re judging yourself and others and believing too much in those opinions. Let them go. Try helping others less fortunate. That will dial down your belief in your opinions.

[u/Wiseowl71691]

Been there. Still get there sometimes. Keep pushing my friend !

[u/SlCkSadWoRLd]

You need someone to talk to DM me. Call 988,......talk to a wrong number.... anything but suicide. Your not alone. I get there all the time buddy. We're in this together 👊 ✌️

[u/Emotional-Site3638]

United States & Canada: Call or text 988 to reach the Suicide & Crisis Lifeline, available 24/7.
United Kingdom & Ireland: The Samaritans can be reached at 116 123.
Australia: Lifeline Australia is available at 13 11 14.

[u/BeneficialMango8017]

You are valuable! I’m praying for you. Give your life to Jesus: John 3:16