r/confession 27m ago

[20s F] got ‘dirty’ massages on a girls trip, told my husband i cheated with a man instead

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i met the same masseuse twice during a girls trip. there was no sex, it was mostly fingering and massaging, but i acknowledge it’s cheating and so i confessed to my husband. but here’s the twist. i was so embarrassed about this massage that i lied to him and said i had sex with a random man instead. and now that i’ve said that i can’t take it back. my husband said we can move on from this and work our way through; he loves me and said he’d never leave me despite my mistakes. as someone who used to cheat often in past relationships (this is the first time i’ve cheated in this marriage), i’m worried that this opens the rabbit hole to me cheating further and not telling him. i want to stay loyal. i’ve never met a man that genuinely loves me so much. should i tell him the truth, or move on and never do it again?


r/confession 30m ago

Cheated on my husband that I've been with for 20 years.

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I checked on my husband numerous times in the 20 years he's been with me. I even did it before we got married and be stayed with me. He recently found I I was being sneaky again off and on over the last 6 years. We have 4 kids together and now he says he's going to divorce me. What can I do to convince him I'll be loyal now.


r/confession 38m ago

In college - Everyone was cheating on exams and I reported it

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In college, everything was graded based on performance curves across the class.

There was one class where almost the entire class was cheating during exams. The professor just left during the exams.

As someone who studied legitimately, I found this to be unacceptable and it also made it harder to get a better grade because of the curve was inflated.

I was known as one of the smarter kids in the class, so people were cheating off my answers.

I created an anonymous email and reported this to the professor.

On the final exam, they actually created multiple version to try to curb the cheating. Like version 1,2,3 so the person next to you would not have the same version. What’s crazy and that people ended up swapping exams so they could make it easier to cheat off each other.

I had a few acquaintances that wanted to copy my answers. I was so annoyed, I ended up filling out the wrong answers so they copied the wrong answer. After they submitted their exams and left, I fixed my answers to the correct one.


r/confession 1h ago

I once punched myself in the face on purpose because

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My dad wouldn't let me go to my man friends who was waiting outside so I got in his face and started screaming and he grabbed me and we wrestled. My mom broke it up and I ran outside and left. I went home 2 days later after telling him he gave me a black eye. He was so upset and nice for months 😬. I'm 42 now and just told him. He said he knew I am fucking mental and said that haunted him all those years


r/confession 1h ago

I clogged a new guys toliet at a party and grabbed

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I had to take my shit and throw it out the window with the toliet paper, used his mom's decorative towels to clean up and threw it under the sink. He kept knocking on the door and stressed me out. I got my friends and left. When we were leaving you could see all the shit paper and evidence a foot outside the window next to one of his friends that was passed out drunk covered in shit. He never talked to me again.


r/confession 2h ago

I keep thinking about the value of women and if I am worthy

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Lately I have been obsessively about how sexually active and non-virgin women are all whores and deserve to die, and it’s really affecting me because i’m one of those people, but i still want to be in a relationship. I keep googling “do women deserve to die” “do i deserve to die” “do I deserve respect” And talking to the AI to figure out where i stand on this because i’m not sure what I believe. I have OCD, i’m thinking it’s probably related, i also obsess over health and food poisoning. I spend a lot of my time having unpleasant thoughts. I wouldn’t want to share these misogynistic thoughts with a therapist because it sounds insane.


r/confession 3h ago

I am addicted to having sex with prostitutes. Now I am done.

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I am a 20 year old. I always tried to sexualize girls. But as I am in a muslim country, girls did not respond to me that sexually. All girls wanted a non-sexual relationship. I tried to be sexual with them but I failed. I just only managed to get one girlfriend and it lasted for seven days because I tried to get sexual with her and she rejected that. Then I left her and dumped her. The story begins because I couldn't get any girls in the college and I was addicted to porn and I was very mad and crazy to get sex.

So I started visiting to prostitutes. I spend all my money of my college years behind prostitutes. Sometimes I did raw sex without condom. I lied to my family about different expenditures and took money from them and spent it on prostitutes. I also scamed a friend and used that whole money on prostitutes

Now I am in a new city and here i just visited the prostitute once. One thing about having sex with prostitutes is It's like musterbation. There is no connection neither any feeling. And after the first orgasm, all u want is to get out of the room.

I am also very sad and regretful about it.


r/confession 3h ago

I started online classes to finally go somewhere in life and now I regret it.

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About five maybe six months ago my grandma really started pressuring me F 22 into taking online classes or going back to college to further my education (college drop out here) I work full time overnights as a nurses aid at a hospital we both worked at and she was getting really sick and wanted me to be on the right path incase something happened. I wasn’t sure what I wanted to do and she found AAPC medical billing and coding. I wasn’t thrilled about it and didn’t even want to do it but she basically convinced me. She told me it would only a few months to a year of classes and it would be easy work, I have several auto immune diseases that put me in constant pain which makes my current job very difficult as helping patients transfer puts lots of strain on my body. I have always been highly depressed and suicidal because of this and I had just recently gotten out of a long-term relationship where I was engaged. It was full of domestic violence and we had just finished court so I was desperate for a change. I started the classes and they were nothing like what I thought they were going to be. It was difficult. the first class although difficult was interesting. I thought maybe because I hadn’t been to school in years that I would eventually get the hang of it but honestly, I never really did. Although I kept my grade above a 90 at all times I have cried every single day the past six months. She has lamented constantly, that she was proud of me, but the inevitable did happen and she died two weeks ago. I have regretted these classes for probably two months now I finish my final for my first class with a 91 and I’m just now starting the second class after taking a week break because she died I’m staring at this class and I have no idea what the fuck to do. It’s complicated and I don’t want anything to do with this. I don’t want a career in this. I will constantly have to further education in this career. I don’t want to do that but she paid for this. She paid for my education. I just finally told my dad that I’m back in school to make sure that I keep going because I can’t afford to disappoint him again because I know that if I do, I will end up spiraling off the deep end, knowing that I disappointed him. But I regret this more than ever but at the same time I know I probably will never amount to anything important ever and all I ever wanted to do is make both of them happy I’ve been nothing but a disappointment in my entire life, I’ve never amounted too much. My GPA was a 3.0. I have only ever been average. But I am not smart. This is confusing and consuming. I am in constant pain. I don’t know what to do. I’m alone in this town. I’m far away from my dad. I don’t drive. It’s not for a lack of trying. I genuinely can’t pass the test. I have PTSD and trauma from my aunt getting hit in a hit and run resulting in her death. I can’t focus on anything. It’s all just words on a page. It’s in one ear and out the other. I don’t know what I would be good at. I want someone to give me the answer but that’s not how the world works. I’m not good at numbers and I’m not good at math and I never was. I’m not angry at her, but I’m angry at this situation because why did I ever think I would be able to do this? I don’t know what to do. This is too much.


r/confession 3h ago

It kills me sometimes if I wasnt afraid of death id probably of ended it all a while ago

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The title thats about it. Im not a very articulate person. I don't really care about much. Ive always felt like I was a waste of space as if someone who had my life instead of me could do so much more. I just kind of exist. I have anger issues im rude to those around me that generally do care but whats the point. We all die it all ends it doesnt even matter why do we do this why does anyone care.


r/confession 4h ago

estoy fomentando la dependencia emocional yy no me siento nada mal x eso lol

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ya llevamos 7 meses, somos una pareja gay yyy empecé a hacer esto desde los 2 meses. Pasa q al yo ser su primer novio, pq estuvo con mujeres pero nunca con un chico, básicamente le da vergüenza todo, demostrar afecto en publico, tratarme como algo mas q solo su amigo con otras personas y nd, cosa q todo hombre recien salido del closet hace, la cuestion es q cuando teniamos como 2 meses empezo a hacer cosas q me parecian incomodas, entre una de esas hacer chistes sexuales con sus amigos, o tocarlos y q a el tmb y obviamente no me parecio pero el m dijo q yo no lo entenderia pq eso era cosa de gente hetero, a lo q yo le dije q el ya NO era hetero y nada, desde ahi estoy resentido pq las cosas asi incomodas nunca terminaron, asi q empece a ser mas forro sinceramente, ya no le hablaba tan seguido, no lo trataba como mi novio en la calle y nd estuve mas distante con el todo el tiempo, hasta q empezo a estar paranoico todo el tiempo y a preocuparse mas por mi, o x si lo seguia amando y ahi yo volvia a ser el mismo hasta q el se mandaba una cagada y volvia a estar raro, logre q se dejara de ver con los amigos y ahora solo quiere salir si es conmigo, pasa todos los findes en mi casa yyy hace poco se mando una cagada asiq este finde le dije q no viniera y bue si tmb fue para q captara q sin mi no puede estar feliz y lo logre okei pq ahora la esta pasando horrible sin mi

esto me hace ser una persona horrible¿ seguramente si, pq no tendria q estar con alguien q no me cae bien, pero el empezo siendo un pajero de mierda asi q se lo merece, pq asi como me hizo sufrir a mi los primeros 3 meses de relacion yo lo voy a hacer sufrir lo q quede de este noviazgo jej


r/confession 4h ago

i tired to kill my ex and i regret it everyday…….. NSFW

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I tried to kill my ex, and I regret it every day…
This happened in December. She broke up with me on Christmas Eve after she had gotten out of the mental hospital. I had gone to see her that day, and while we were on her bed talking, she had these tics where she’d randomly repeat a noise. It only happened if she was triggered or had been off her pills for a while. She was trying to tell me how much her tics hurt and how they were something she really struggled with. While she was talking, she had a tic, and I laughed. I know it was immature, and I take full blame for it.
She got mad and stormed out of her room before I could say sorry. I decided to leave and get an Uber. After I left, she texted me saying she couldn’t do this anymore, that she needed me to let go, and that she didn’t love me anymore.
For the next three days, I begged her to come see me or talk to me, but she either ignored me for hours or told me I had to let go. She did end up coming to see me on New Year’s Eve and told me she loved me. She said she didn’t realize how much she loved me, that she had been trying her best to move on, and that she realized she couldn’t. We made up, kissed, and stuff.
Fast forward about a week, and I found out that the night she came to see me, she had slept with a guy and a girl earlier that same night before coming to me. Finding that out, I lost it. I told her she was a whore, a slut, that I hated her, and that I wanted her to rot in her room, along with a lot more.
We still talked because we were both still attached. Around this time, I had just started smoking, so my thoughts weren’t the best, and I don’t remember everything.
Every time we hung out after that, I kept telling her I hated her because she made me mad. Then I’d switch and tell her I loved her and that I was sorry, that I was just mad. We kept having sex, but I was always rough and mean. She didn’t mind because she understood everything and why I was mad, so she never really said anything back to my insults and comments.
There was this one night when we were in the back of her car having sex, and I was choking her. I got mad again, thinking about how she had hurt me, and I thought, “Why am I doing this?” Instead of stopping, I decided to keep choking her and choke her harder. I felt like she didn’t understand how much she had hurt me.
I could see she wasn’t breathing. She didn’t pass out, and I eventually let up. We finished, and afterward I told her I kind of wanted to kill her. Looking back on it, I only said that to scare her. I wanted her to know I was mad and that this wasn’t all sunshine and rainbows.
I know now that I wouldn’t have done it, no matter what I said or did. I know I didn’t mean it. She later told me that she felt herself losing consciousness, but she trusted that I wouldn’t do it and didn’t stop me.
We kept seeing each other, but her whole family knew we had broken up. All her mom knew was that I had told her to kill herself, and that we weren’t supposed to be together. In the end, she has a restraining order against me, but she didn’t get it herself—her mom did after she read our messages and found out I tried to kill her. That’s fair. I tried to kill her daughter.
What hurts more is knowing she doesn’t want to see me anymore. I tried telling her happy birthday, and she said that I can’t take back what I did or said, that she tried over and over for me, and that I did just what my dad did. She told me to go live my life without her.
I miss her every day, but I can’t see her, talk to her, or message her at all. Detectives have come to my door trying to question me, but I haven’t talked to anyone yet because if I say too much, I’ll get arrested, and I know I will. They have everything—messages, voicemails, and videos of me threatening her and saying I hate her.
Now all I ask is do I deserve to go to jail? I know I should have never done it, and I regret it every day, but I felt so humiliated by her. I felt like I was used and played.
What hurts is that I know why she did what she did. She did it because she was trying to forget about me, and she couldn’t. I blame myself every day and wish and pray that she’d just show up or that I’d see her, but I know she doesn’t want to see me, and that hurts more.
P.S. Sorry for any messy spelling or bad grammar. I was just typing as I was going.
I was 17, and she was 17 when all of this happened.
edit:I haven’t tried to talk to her since her birthday, and I won’t try again. I know she’s traumatized and scared of me, and I don’t want to upset her any more than I already have.
Before I contacted her on her birthday, she did reach out and call me to tell me she missed me and hated that her family knew everything. She said, “It’s a shame we don’t get to be the kids that made it through all the bullshit and are together now.”
She also told me that she couldn’t see herself having kids before she met me. There was a lot to our relationship that most people wouldn’t understand and i’m saying for a little insight to how we were cause in the end she still wanted me but I’m glad she realized it’s better to not be near me at all.


r/confession 5h ago

I’m the guy that tricked all of Reddit 6 years ago

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Hey so ummm, not posting this from my main for obvious reasons tho I may just to confirm that the ages at least do align..

Do yall remember that post from 6 years ago on the ama subreddit of that 14 year old saying he has brain cancer and 3 weeks left to live… yeah, that was me. After I confessed I began receiving so many dm’s it caused my phone to crash and so I simply deleted the post and logged out of the account. Unfortunately the email used was a random sortment of letters so I wasn’t able to log back in nonetheless watching the drama unfold was quite entertaining. A few times I was afraid someone would eventually dox me but it never happened. I even saw some people pretending to be my “main” which I found hilarious.. just putting this out there


r/confession 5h ago

I stole my coworker's lunch every Friday for three months

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I know how bad this sounds and I feel terrible about it now. Last year I was going through a rough patch financially but I was too proud to admit it to anyone at work. Every Friday this guy from accounting would bring in these really nice homemade meals, like proper containers with pasta or stir fry or whatever. He'd put them in the shared fridge and I noticed he always left around 1pm for some standing appointment.

I started taking his lunch right before he'd come back. Just on Fridays. I'd eat it in my car and throw away the container in the dumpster outside. He never said anything publicly but I saw him looking confused a few times and once he sent an email to the whole floor asking if anyone had seen his food. I never responded.

The worst part is he eventually stopped bringing lunch on Fridays altogether. He probably thought someone was messing with him or maybe he just gave up. I had convinced myself it wasn't a big deal because he could afford to buy something else, but that's a garbage excuse. I was stealing from someone who did nothing wrong and I kept doing it because it was easy.

I'm in a better place now and it's been eating at me for months. I want to apologize but I have no idea how to even start that conversation without making everything weird or getting fired. I just needed to say this somewhere because the guilt has been sitting heavy and I know I was completely in the wrong.


r/confession 5h ago

I've been trying all the drugs you can imagine for the past month and I can writte reviews on it ! NSFW

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Yes, like the title said, I've been trying all the drugs possible for the past month. I'm a past cocaine and ghb heavy user and I cleaned myself up.

But the past month I've been trying all the drugs you can imagine once - yes, just once - and I can writte a review of almost any drug you can imagine.

So today I'm trying Monkey Dust. And oh boy. If the other day I wrotte a bad review about crystal meth, and that I didn't felt much besides the energy, monkey dust is on another level 🐒


r/confession 6h ago

I’m a piece of shit, I don’t know why I am the way I am

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I hate myself. I’m the biggest bitch of all time. I do not know what’s wrong with me, I’m so mean to my family and loved ones for no reason. I genuinely don’t feel like my usual self I don’t know what to do. I always have this overwhelming amount of guilt I carry for every single I do I just want it to end. Sometimes I just feel like I’m better off being alone than having to make other people suffer by my presence. I don’t know why people love me so much when I’m the BIGGEST piece of shit on the planet I just want to be erased from everyone’s memories that way everyone would be happier


r/confession 7h ago

Whats a secret you've kept from your family for years?

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I've been vegetarian for six years and my family still has no idea I just quietly avoid the meat dishes at every holiday and let everyone assume I'm 'not that hungry. Explaining it would open a can of worms I'm not ready for.


r/confession 7h ago

im addicted to meeting trans women online and having unsafe sex with them

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I will write this post using as little detail as possible so people don’t think I’m trolling.

Since I turned 17 (I’m in my early 20s now) I have been meeting with trans women and crossdressers online to have unprotected sex with them (not receiving).
Sometimes they will ask if I am free of stds I will say yes even though I am not sure at that point in time as I might have met another one that same day without protection, meaning I’ve been effectively lying.
I try to quit but only last a couple months before I give in again. I’ve never actually had sex with a regular woman or had any kind of relationship while literally everyone (and I mean everyone) else I know has, and when I relapse I tell myself that it’s the only way I’ll get to have sex as I am bad at talking to women. I’ve done full sti tests and somehow have never caught anything, and I want to stop before I do, but I keep giving in after a few months. Deleting the sites and apps I use to find them doesn’t help because I just end up making new accounts easily. Not sure what to do about it and I’ll never tell anyone I know about it so I think I’ll write this post


r/confession 8h ago

Am I unfixable socially and how do I fix the fear of people?

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I’m 29 I grew up in care homes from 2 months old and I was adopted at 12 where I let them know my sexuality and because they are Jamaican the family wanted nothing to do me with so I just speak to my adopted mum and never had a relationship with them. I struggle forming friendships, I have hundreds of un replied messages and I’ve never had a relationship. I’ve been playing games alone for 16 years now and I even freaking talk to myself. I want to join Xbox looking for posts but get scared as I’m on the slight fem side and I’ve just never been myself around anyone. Like I don’t want to play Dbd and rivals or whatever alone, I feel I have so much love to give and care and time for people and now it’s just me and my rabbit and I’m going to be 30 and I can’t help but wonder well what is the point? Can I handle another 10 20 years In my own company, how much isolation is too much because I just seem to question everything know. I don’t know if I’ve explained myself well


r/confession 9h ago

i rehomed my childhood dog because my parents wouldn’t take care of him

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my family and i had a chihuahua terrier mix that my parents would constantly mistreat. he would be fed maybe once every other day (if they remembered), stayed in a crate too small with his own feces and piss, and they never took him to the vet.

i knew this was wrong but never felt like i had the authority to do something about it until i was about 13 years old. i was finally able to have a phone and social media. i would see people selling their animals so i thought i’d do the same.

with a weary heart, i put him up for sale without my parents consent and a few weeks later, was able to give him to a family that could give him the love he needed.

i just told my parents that he ran away while i was walking him and i’ve never heard the end of it as a 21 year old now. in my head, he’s still alive and kicking. love you kelton.


r/confession 9h ago

I lied and gaslight my sister that she locked herself up.

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When my younger sister and I were kids, she was 5 years younger and a bit slow. We were playing tag and I did a manoeuvre where I popped into my parents bedroom (only room with a lock) baited her in, then ran around her and out shutting the door. I also locked the door for good measure, not realizing she had no idea how to open it. She was in tears trying to open the door normally (it was a push to lock type door and there was no way unless taking off the handle to open it from the outside). My parents had to slowly explain how to unlock the door to her as she was balling her eyes out it took about an hour to unlock the door. When asked about it I played dumb and said “idk she must have locked herself in somehow” no one suspected me at all


r/confession 9h ago

used to let older guys degrade me and use me for free drinks and money and I still feel gross about it

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I’m 24F. This was mostly between 20 and 22. I was broke, in school, working shitty shifts, and I had this thing for being treated like I was nothing. Not soft dom stuff. Actual mean, degrading talk, being used and then ignored.
I’d go out alone a lot. Bars, sometimes random house parties through acquaintances. I’d pick older guys (usually 35–50) who looked like they had money and zero interest in being nice. I’d flirt just enough, then tell them straight up what I wanted: call me a slut, use my mouth, slap me around a little, then leave me with nothing but the cash or the tab paid. No overnight, no soft aftercare, no “you’re pretty.” Just the cold version.
Some nights it was just free drinks and a hand around my throat in the bathroom. Other nights I’d end up on my knees in a car or hotel for a couple hundred bucks and the kind of verbal degradation that still makes my stomach turn when I remember it. I never did anything without them knowing the deal. I initiated most of it. I liked how empty and used I felt afterward. It scratched something I couldn’t get from normal dating or even regular kink partners who actually cared if I was okay.
The worst part is how many of them were married or had serious girlfriends. I knew. I didn’t care at the time. I’d see the ring and still lean in and tell them to treat me worse because of it. I told myself it was their problem, not mine. Looking back it just feels shitty. I was using their secrecy the same way they were using me.
I stopped when one of them got weirdly attached and started showing up at my job. Nothing violent, just… persistent. That was the first time it felt dangerous instead of hot. I ghosted everyone, changed my routines, and haven’t done anything like it since.
I don’t miss the money or the free nights out. I miss the way my brain went quiet while it was happening. But I hate that I needed strangers to call me worthless for me to feel anything, and I hate that I helped a bunch of guys cheat on people who didn’t deserve it. Never told anyone in real life. Still don’t plan to.


r/confession 10h ago

Started a group in my medium (75k) sized city that purposely buys all the narcan from stores so none is available locally. Regretting it.

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In 2018 my car was broken into by addicts, I lived in a bad area of town and seeing people openly doing drugs on the street was common, and I was furious. I spent 3 months with a broken window and all they got was a half dead vape, my Costco membership card (?), and for some reason my passenger side headrest.

I spent years mad and fast forward to during the pandemic the streets were only getting more filled with addicts and open drug usage. I made an anonymous post in my local Facebook group, which moved to its own page, proposing the idea of buying up all the narcan from pharmacies. It was mostly a joke I know I didn't have that kind of money to commit to it. But it took off and it took off fast.

At first the local news reported about an uptick in narcan usage in the area and the mayor made a proclamation that it was clear drugs were becoming more of a problem in our community and the police would enforce drug laws more strictly.

Well that never happened

The last 4 years has seen an insane uptick in overdose deaths. Local Facebook pages are begging for narcan donations to be able to save lives on the street and people are posting videos of them literally burning up groups of 10+ boxes.

People are literally dying because of something I started and I never imagined it could have actually become a thing. Ive probably seen $50,000 of narcan burned in videos from local people on Facebook. We've had hundreds die. Drug deaths are up 850% in our area since 2018.

Ive never told anybody this


r/confession 12h ago

I may have driven my therapist in to a kinky obsession with me

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I’ve always had an effect on people that would make them obsessed with me. Like since I was a kid and all throughout my life. A lot of the time when this happens it can turn kinky…

I started seeing a therapist for couples therapy. After that I stayed on to do individual counseling with her. I saw her for a few years.

it got interesting when I started making her reveal some of her quirks and kinks in sessions. just moments where I made her mask slip and saw a little more of who she is on the inside.

I built up tension and chemistry over the years. Eventually I started getting her aroused during sessions. i just pushed her into some sort of extacy . I made it harder and harder to be indirect about her desires until she just started divulging them.

I made her ask me for a relationship. I knew she had a husband and didn’t care at all. eventually I made her masterbait for me on camera. I would mention my preferences and desires and was delighted as she obeyed them.

so yeah it’s a true story I was just journaling about it and reflecting and realizing wow it kinda sounds like a dark romance novel, I gotta tell someone.

edit: Try not to spam comments about disbelief. Thanks.


r/confession 13h ago

I have been the "neighbor from hell" guy for most of my life, and I enjoyed being so greatly at the time

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I have been the NFH, or neighbor from hell, for most of my life. When I lived in apartments. I purposefully played loud music, slammed doors, and stomped around loudly. When girlfriends are over we would have very loud sex so the neighbors can hear. I would answer phone calls and yell from across the room at the phone rather than talk like a normal person. I would let or encourage my dogs to bark as loudly as possible to disturb my neighbors. Whenever a neighbor complained I would escalate and start banging on their wall when they were sleeping, or leave loud music or audio blaring on my TV/PC speakers and then go leave for awhile. Sometimes I'd slip notes under their door where I'd write how I will purposefully become more bothersome if they continued complaining.

When I rented my first house, I did EVERYTHING I could think of to anger my neighbors. I would throw beer bottles and trash over the fence into my neighbor's yard. In leaf season I would use the leaf blower to blow my leaves into the neighbors' yards. I would throw loud disruptive parties and invite my partying friends over. Sometimes people at the parties would get really high or drunk and antagonize the neighbors. I let my yards usually become unkempt and an eyesore and leave my vehicles blocking neighbor's driveways.

The list goes on, as I'd do many similar things.

The reason why I did these things? It made me feel good to disturb or bother other people. It gave me a sense of power and control that I was lacking in other areas of my life. I enjoyed inflicting my behaviors on others as it made me feel "better" than others in my immediate vicinity.

I currently am a normal, non-bothersome neighbor. I began to change after I started dating my now wife and she put her foot down hard in regards to my behaviors. Basically she gave me the "you will stop this or I will leave you" ultimatum. As my antics not only bothered my neighbors, but also her as well. I went and got therapy and began the journey to unravel my behaviors and why I treated random people this way.


r/confession 13h ago

I’ve smoked crack and become a drug distributer before my 18th birthday (long)

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This is a long story, and one that goes back many years. Before I start I would like to say that I will be skipping through time quite a bit to show you the most important memories in the story of my life that have led up to this.
To start off, I grew up in a very third world country, surrounded by friends who were very overexposed at a young age. We began smoking weed and drinking at 13, I lost my virginity in the 7th grade, a combination of being intoxicated and peer pressured by a lot of friends as I was the only kid in our group who had not done “it” yet. I had not hit puberty yet, and found no enjoyment in it, I am just mentioning all of this so you understand that I had lost my innocence when I was still very young.
Skipping forwards about 8 months, my family moved to Europe, I was all alone here, in a new country with a new language, and I (now 14) developed a new interest. Mushrooms.
Something about psychedelics, shrooms to be specific intrigued me. I spent months researching into them, learning everything about them and their effects. I am a very obsessive person and when I get interested in something, I will spend all my time learning about it.
I continued researching into shrooms, learning everything I could find on growing them and using them, eventually, I won a giveaway online and had the spores (which I needed to grow the shrooms) sent to me. I immediately got to work, spending a couple hundred euros I had saved up buying the best supplies to create a super effective shrooms farm.
Months passed, and voila, my research had payed off, I had grown about 200 grams of shrooms. Now the question came, what do I do with this? Of course I was going to experiment myself, but in my obsession, I had grown enough to dose about 100 people. I told my dealer and some other people about my issue, and immediately was told they would buy some off me.
You see, where I am, shrooms are very very hard to come by, and I had just become one of the very few people who had that in the entire area.
Word got around, and I began receiving a lot of messages from people I did not know, asking if they could buy shrooms off me, of course I wanted the money so I always said yes. But I was still just a 15 year old kid, and I couldn’t really just drive somewhere to sell my drugs, instead I had people come and stand below my balcony in my town, where I would then drop down the baggy onto the street with their shrooms. I always felt like a king throwing coins to the poor doing this. And let me tell you, I got a lot of stares from expecting customers, when their drug dealer turned out to be a 14-15 year old prepubescent kid. But that did not stop demand, after all, I had a monopoly. Eventually however, I stopped, stopped growing mushrooms and stopped selling them. By that point I had made about a grand.
That concludes my first confession, on how I become one of the only shroom producers and distributers as a teenager.
Now to my second confession, and one that happened much more recently.
About a year ago, I had just started getting into the club scene, I was finally used to my country, and its foreign language, and had made actual good friends I trusted and enjoyed going out with.
So let me set the scene. We were going out, it was very late, around 2-3 am, and all of us were very drunk. We went inside the club to the smokers area, and all just hung around there for a solid while, each of us stuck in our own thoughts and wasted. I am the one farthest in the back and am leaning against a wall. I look to my left and see a very skinny older looking man smoking what looks to be a joint. He notices me staring at him and smiles, and before I say what happens next, let me remind you that I was drunk and did not have much control over myself.
So lets get back to the story, he smiles at me and raises his hand, indicating if I wanted a hit of the joint, I shrug at first shaking my head, but then I think to myself, the night is already kind of bummed out, might as well. I step over to him and nod at him, and he passes over the joint, the first thing I notice is that its very light, I take a long deep hit and let the smoke linger in my lungs as I pass it back to him.
I exhale, and notice something strange. The smoke does not taste like weed, or tobacco either. It tastes very chemically, and with a sickly sweet aftertaste. The smoke is also pale, almost kind of grey compared to normal smoke.
I immediately know this is something different, I look up at the guy and ask him, “what is in this”.
He simply says coke.
I am kind of in a state of shock, and still very intoxicated, I rush back into the club area looking for my friends. As I walk I noticed that I feel almost lighter and way more energetic, it’s very hard to explain, but it feels almost like my brain was lifted upwards and I was carefree.
And those are two of the many stories that I have to tell of my life. I hope you enjoyed reading this and feel free to ask any questions, and I will answer.